It’s almost 4 in the morning and I’m wide awake. I have my Economics exam tomorrow and I haven’t studied a thing. I think, I’ve become habitual to sleeping and waking up late. My life is a mess right now, days are just plain sad or fine and nothing near good. I met a lot of new people but got really close to only one. He has become kind of very close, someone I can cling onto but things aren’t going quite well with him too. Why do I end up disappointing people? Why am I such a hard person to love?
Today, I realized a thing that no matter how many people I meet or am going to meet noone is close enough on which I can rely on or like, say stuff about what is really going on in my mind and go on with my rant like, hey! I cried last night and talks like that. I think, I won’t be able to make myself comfortable with anyone. I am just waiting for my exams to get over so that I can go home and isolate myself from all that has been going wrong.